And yet not a moment all too soon I write another post. It feels like late October weather-wise; I already started spotted some trees changing color. Will probably have to break out the flannel soon and my feel are already icy just by walking from my room to the kitchen!

I'm so drained from the schedule, and so is my wallet. The class I switched into is probably the most expensive class I'll ever take, as well the most brutal, classwork-wise... Though my pop-book class may be more irritating for reasons I won't state here. I really don't feel like a college senior, which I heard is rumoredly the most "fun" and "laid back" year. I ain't feeling it.
On top of my anxiety, I've been having crippling stomach pains for almost two weeks; as if my eating schedule isn't already always-fcked by said school anxiety. It's to the point where I'm terrified of eating or else face cramps strong enough to knock me off my feet. The pains got so severe that I was woken out of my sleep from it, and spend a good while moaning and trying not to puke. Now that my sister's got a cold it's inevitable I'll get it too since we share the same room and it's happened once already.

Also I finally gave Ensiferum a listen during the past weekend.

Accurate, but no IRL sieges though; I'd quit school and just be warrior if that really happened

Now I know what other CD's I'm adding to my Xmas list. I never realized how awesome it is to have the physical music in your hands, now that I can actually afford some with my grown-up money. Plus it's nice to have backup when your computer/iTunes crashes...

JUMALAUTA

SCHOOOOOL UGHHHH

Yes yes, I should be grateful and love school and all that, but I just can't help but get 2495843 knots in my stomach when ever I have relating, for, and from school. Sometimes it's not even the workload, it's the people. I think the reason why I liked working in the office than going to class is because in the office, that young adult/teen-drama doesn't really exist, but college students take their highschool behavior with them.
That aside, I'm think going to be switching one of my classes. This class requires me to get up early for yet another morning class and lasts six hours, with another three-hour class right afterwards. But I believe it's worth it; I much rather take a class that improves my technique so I can paint what I love better, than to take a class that the only guideline is to "do the assignment, if you have concerns too bad."
Brutal stuff coming up.

But I have to say I had a pretty good birthday this year. Last year's was pretty awful; that but I guess the cynicism turned out for nothing. I got quite of bit of gifts, not to show off but I think they're definitely better than last year's.

not pictured: ticket to yet another live showklsjdf

On my actual birthday my family tried to surprise me with some tiramisu, but I ruined the surprise myself. ww It was still nice though. 

I'm still more or less in summer vacation mode... I'm hoping I can snap out of it and get down to business since it is my last year. I can't even concentrate writing this blog, haha.